writings → mind ablaze
Sometimes I feel the darkness within me
I can touch it. It smells like glue
Wish so much your lips weren’t so blue
Though killing me would set you free?
[Understand me, is it so hard?]
Darkness attracts light from others
Only for a limited time
Limited range of access
Then it fades away, as surely as dust in the wind
[Try to feel what I feel, for once]
Shivering from every pore of skin, my mind ablaze
Spots of sun on the floor, such as blood from the morning sin
The mourning sign
Interact as if nothing ever happened
“Now death will occur slowly. Pardon me if I’m still breathing.”
[Shivering like blood wind]
Collapse your breath… Entangle those ropes around my wrists, slither my neck
«L’Enfer froid de solitude ne se tarit que lorsque je ferme les yeux. De peur, je me recroqueville et pris je-ne-sais-qui. »
Between my heart and my soul, shoot to kill
Burn everything
Prevent me from thinking
Especially about you
Because you do not think about me
It swallows me
I disappear from the surface
From every other place your hands ever laid on
It’s a tougher burden than what I’ve figured before, being alone
Trying to be intact so my shoulders are always available for people to shove things at
Helping fixing others, but can’t fix myself
The darkness, it invades me
I was buried alive in it before I even crossed the living border
«La solitude se recroqueville en son linceul. Et la laisse seule. »
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